Beauty in Being Unique [Part 2 - Lost Magic]

I just realized... it's real easy to have the "Christian thing" figured out and taken care of, even the elusive concept of "grace", but what about falling in love with it along the way? Why is it that we believe the most beautiful thing in the world and yet, instead of God being that lost bit of magic, intrigue and mystery we've been hoping for since we were kids, our lives are more like a system just to "get through"? I feel like I'm finally getting it! :)


I was always really into fantasy movies. I just watched a Harry Potter movie tonight. There's something about such movies that always makes me really happy. I want to know why that's missing out of my life with God. God is more wonderful and wide and beautiful than any movie can be... so I know if I'm not getting this sense of childlike wonder out of my relationship with Him, I'm definitely missing something key. There's nothing ordinary about God... He's awesome, just ask King David.


I've got a method. A system. And God doesn't work in systems. He works in beautiful, uneven, messy patterns. He loves sloppy, silly individuals who don't have it together. The beautiful rocks and canyons and waterfalls shout His beauty more than stained glass windows ever could. Come undone. Let your walls down. Let the Lord in and let Him show you how beautiful everything is in itself. Be silly and undignified... stop trying to be beautiful and collected. He makes you righteous. He makes you beautiful. 


We always wanted to believe in magic when we were little. Ask any kid. We want to believe that the impossible is both a) possible and b) personally available to all of us. We want to believe that each of us each has his own unique "powers", if I may push the boundaries of language into the near-heretical to make a point. By that term, I meant our own unique role and special purpose that we've been blessed with by God. Don't you desire that?


What if it were all true? What if God does give us each a unique role in the "impossible"? What if that magic that always kept us entranced as kids were real? What if that was God, and not some impersonal force? What if that were available to each and every one of us, and in addition to making us powerful and beautiful in meaningful ways, it actually cared for us and loved us? 


I'm just enraptured as I write this because I have a hope... because a new understanding for me is near. I can feel it. The system of getting on God's good side, that I made with my own hands, is breaking down. I'm not abandoning Christ. I'm just rediscovering for myself that God is Someone I can dare to love and love wildly. And anyone who tells you different is clearly content with chains. 


I want the world to fall in love with Someone that is mysterious, powerful, wonderful, kind, lovely, poetic, tranquil, violent, perilous, natural, enduring, vast, and yes, magical. God is that for us. I always knew He was good, even before I accepted Him into my life. I never had any doubt. But now my eyes are opening and I can see that God is my magic. He is my unexplained but undeniable joy. He's always here for me, and I delight in getting to know more about who He is. It's no longer about saving me, He's promised that. It's about falling in love with Him as our Joy that we've hoped for all along. 


And suddenly we can see, it's not about physical beauty, status, wealth, power, influence, education, style, or anything else. It's open to anyone at all. God is the God of all that was created, and if He is our only hope, then can we not dare to believe that he can do the "impossible"? Isn't there a sense of wonder and "enchantment" in that? 


Christ invites us to a relationship that will never fail. God is all about His own awesome glory, and as far as I'm concerned, that's worth my life! That's the biggest dream I can dream of!