Simon Cowell's Success Marred By 'Dark Moods' And Depression

I'm posting this because this is weirdly just like what I go through. Also, the post date is my birthday. Weird.
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May 24th, 2009 12:30pm EDT

Simon Cowell can't fully enjoy his superstar lifestyle - he is cursed by "dark moods" which make him "totally miserable". The music mogul has experienced huge success throughout his career as an industry executive and TV personality, helping to mastermind small screen hits including American Idol, America's Got Talent and Britain's The X Factor.

And despite a life of luxury, with an estimated $180 million fortune, Cowell admits he is prone to bouts of depression and irritability that lead him to locking out all the people closest to him.

He tells Britain's Daily Mail, "If I went to a psychiatrist, it would be a long session. I've always thought that I do have a number of issues that probably need dealing with, because I am quite odd in some ways. I get very dark moods for no reason. Nothing in particular brings it on. You can be having the best time of your life and yet you're utterly and totally miserable. I get very anti-social, depressed and irritable with people. I don't have time for them. I can't make phone calls and stuff. I just sit on my own for days. I'm not sitting in a darkened room rocking. Things might have gone really well and then I torture myself. I cannot believe it. I have to find something to make me miserable.

"I get to points in my life where I sometimes think I'm never going to be happy. Someone said to me recently, 'You're like a human buffet table. Everyone comes and takes something from you and, at the end, there's nothing left.'"

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I find benefit in self-disclosing that I struggle with this. It helps me relieve some tension. Mainly, though, I just think it'd be fitting to give you a picture of what it feels like for me. I actually heard this on the radio and googled it using some of the words I remembered. What sucks is, right as they were wrapping up this celeb gossip, they put on Pink's song about "you're hot and you're cold, you're yes and you're no"... as if not even the depressed are safe from the media pointing fingers and laughing.