I'm growing up

I'm gonna be working part time at Carmike Cinema this semester and trying to find another job.

Let's get to the interesting spiritual stuff. I think cause I'm not in class this semester, I'm going to have an awesome time developing spiritually. I'll have so much more time to use toward studying the Word and stuff... this is such a great opportunity. Pray for me that I would look at this positively and really develop while I have so much time to devote to it.

If I do get another job then things could get a little crazy but I still think with no studying it's not gonna be that bad.

Hopefully Olive Garden will pick me up as a table busser (someone who comes after and cleans).

If anyone wants to jam sometime let me know.

You know it's crazy but I feel like getting a girlfriend used to be something I obsess about but now it's not too bad. Sure it's on my mind... but I'm much more serious. I realize that I am looking for my wife here, not a short-term lover. I see past it, and I know it would only end badly. In order to be there for my wife the way I need to be, want to be, I would have to be a lot more grown up at heart. Marrying someone is serious stuff! Matt Chandler is right... we're not created just to have sex with a BODY! It's about having sex with a soul. In a sense. There is a "knowing" of each other that is intimate and two become one. Two souls come together for comfort and pleasure and procreation and other reasons. It is SO much more than the world thinks it is. The world doesn't know what to think of sex. It can't make up its mind.

So yeah. I really want to get dead serious about this and grow up. Not in the sense that I want my wife and I want her right now... but I'm ready to be where God wants me to be. And I want to be at that point. And God puts opportunities there, I firmly believe that. I live my life one day at a time and I don't get caught up in future plans because it's all in motion. But I do wish I could be more goal-oriented, and that's part of the spiritual development that needs to happen this semester. I'm starting to become more of a man and stand up for myself when people try to use me.

So pray for me. Pray that I would pray. Pray that I would love Christ more and more. Pray that I would crave spiritual challenges. And pray that I can pay off my chiropractic bill that I let pile up by accident. Let's just say, that's going to be REALLY hard.