Crazy Love is challenging

"She gives me love, love, love, love... crazy love."

Sorry. I like that song.

Crazy Love (the book) is hitting me like a ton of bricks. I literally feel short of breath. "Lukewarm people don't really want to be saved from their sin; only from the penalty of their sin. They don't genuinely hate sin and aren't truly sorry for it; they're merely sorry because God is going to punish them."

Francis Chan has a whole list of Scripture quotes that refer to people to don't really love Christ, they just have whitewashed fronts and go through the motions. Deep down I do love Him but I've buried my longing and need for Him under piles of good works.

Let's just say that I've been hit where it hurts and it feels good. Which doesn't happen often.

These quotes he lists are ones I've heard before but for some reason my ears were stopped up compared to now. The top quote really hit me the most. Which of course isn't Scripture but it's him saying the truth.

"I know your deeds; you have a reputation of being alive, but you are dead" (Rev 3:1)

Ok. Now I don't think I'm spiritually dead and that I'm a fake going to Hell. Deep down I really love what is good and righteous. But this is a serious situation for me. I want to question myself deeply and test myself in the fire and come out harder, more mature, more dead to sin. Please pray for me that this comes to pass. I want to figure out this mystery that is so above my comprehension.

I'm not gonna talk about it anymore because it's useless to talk about something that is supposed to be a heart experience. It only distracts. Let me know what you think about it, if you've read this book or not. I encourage you to.